Am I Superstitious?

A more personal piece. A peak into my life living with superstitions

Aylee Ahmadzadeh | March 23, 2024

A wave of shock took over me as soon as I heard the words "I was on twitter the last time they scored, let me open twitter again so we can get another goal" come out of my mouth. It really made me reflect on what pieces of my life were so subconsciously calculated and how much I really believe that I can control. There are countless instances when I'm watching a game where I either refuse to move from my seat, or absolutely have to move from my seat. It's a really frustrating trait to live with, it can end up taking over big chunks of my daily or weekly routine.

On March 13, 2024, when the Colorado Avalanche were playing against the Vancouver Canucks, I was lucky enough to be there. The Canucks came out fast in the first period with a quick two goals, as you can imagine I was pretty frustrated. In the first 5 minutes of the second period the Canucks managed to get another one on the board. This is when I started spiralling, I had begin to remember that most of the previous games I had been to usually ended with a Canucks shutout. Now I'm racking my brain and I become so paranoid that at one point I ask my brother to pull out previous scores from games I had been to, to see if they all resulted in a shutout. I was SO busy and in my own head about this, that I ended up missing Rantanen's goal with 3 seconds left in the period but I walked into that intermission with just a sigh of relief. I knew that that goal was going to be the turning point because one thing that I've learned from watching the Avalanche is that when they get one, the rest will follow. The scary thing to think about is the fact that if they hadn't had scored until later on, I would have spent the entire game in anxiety and stress on what I was doing wrong when in reality it has NOTHING to do with me. It's sad to think about the fact that I was privileged enough to have one of the best teams in the league right in front of me and all i could think about was how my actions were affecting them.

Quite literally right in front of me too, these seats were phenomenal!

The moral of the story here is don't be like me. Try and enjoy the game as much as possible and don't let silly things like this get in the way! Everyday I am working towards becoming a better and more relaxed person and I know that one day I will get to that point, but until then catch me playing couch roulette :) #GOHABSGO

Aylee